Plans

One of the last things I ever expected in life was to have a baby at 24. Michael and I discussed the topic many times before we got married and we thought 5 years was a good plan. Time to get established in our jobs, make some money, buy a house....then have a baby when I was around 28. Plus, I didn't really like babies. Never had. I figured, though, that eventually I would want one and 5 years gave me some time to get used to the idea.

Fast forward a year and a half. Michael and I were at the drive-in (don't worry; this is not going to be the story of how Kade was conceived) and he looked at me during the movie and said, "I love you" and I just thought I want to have a baby with this man. No, really. That's how it happened. A few days later, we were having a heated discussion about something and I said, "Well, I was going to tell you I wanted to have a baby with you, but nevermind!" He immediately softened and said, "Really?!" See, he didn't want to wait 5 years in the first place, but was going along with me.

Now, when I decide I want something, I become engrossed in getting it. I read the books, made the charts, timed the days, and bing-bang-boom, 4 months later, I was pregnant. I can't imagine my life without Kade and I LOVE being a mommy!

However, sometimes I feel really lonely. I have several childhood friends, but NONE of them is at the same place in life as I am. One is married, one is about to get married, one is going after her dream, but no one is a stay at home mom with a baby. I don't feel like I can call them and say, "Oh, guess what?! Kade wanted to nurse all night last night and I think he's getting a tooth!" (no offense if you read this, guys). I don't really have any girlfriends to go to the movies with or out to dinner. Sometimes, I feel really old.

God has blessed me greatly, though, with a group of mommy friends! They're not exactly my age (thought they're not that much older!), but they are godly women and I can relate to them and I really enjoy being in their presence. They are supportive and encouraging. I look forward to getting together with them! See, God always knows our needs, even when it comes to something as seemingly small as friends. I always joke about it, but Michael and I are even in a parents of young children/couples Sunday School class. I never thought that at 24 years old, I would be in a parents Sunday School class! We are the youngest people in there, but we have so much fun!

I made up the most awesome plans for my life, and most of them are turning out completely differently from what I thought and planned. But, boy, is life good....and God is great!