Tuesday, April 6, 2010


One of the last things I ever expected in life was to have a baby at 24. Michael and I discussed the topic many times before we got married and we thought 5 years was a good plan. Time to get established in our jobs, make some money, buy a house....then have a baby when I was around 28. Plus, I didn't really like babies. Never had. I figured, though, that eventually I would want one and 5 years gave me some time to get used to the idea.

Fast forward a year and a half. Michael and I were at the drive-in (don't worry; this is not going to be the story of how Kade was conceived) and he looked at me during the movie and said, "I love you" and I just thought I want to have a baby with this man. No, really. That's how it happened. A few days later, we were having a heated discussion about something and I said, "Well, I was going to tell you I wanted to have a baby with you, but nevermind!" He immediately softened and said, "Really?!" See, he didn't want to wait 5 years in the first place, but was going along with me.

Now, when I decide I want something, I become engrossed in getting it. I read the books, made the charts, timed the days, and bing-bang-boom, 4 months later, I was pregnant. I can't imagine my life without Kade and I LOVE being a mommy!

However, sometimes I feel really lonely. I have several childhood friends, but NONE of them is at the same place in life as I am. One is married, one is about to get married, one is going after her dream, but no one is a stay at home mom with a baby. I don't feel like I can call them and say, "Oh, guess what?! Kade wanted to nurse all night last night and I think he's getting a tooth!" (no offense if you read this, guys). I don't really have any girlfriends to go to the movies with or out to dinner. Sometimes, I feel really old.

God has blessed me greatly, though, with a group of mommy friends! They're not exactly my age (thought they're not that much older!), but they are godly women and I can relate to them and I really enjoy being in their presence. They are supportive and encouraging. I look forward to getting together with them! See, God always knows our needs, even when it comes to something as seemingly small as friends. I always joke about it, but Michael and I are even in a parents of young children/couples Sunday School class. I never thought that at 24 years old, I would be in a parents Sunday School class! We are the youngest people in there, but we have so much fun!

I made up the most awesome plans for my life, and most of them are turning out completely differently from what I thought and planned. But, boy, is life good....and God is great!


  1. If I've learned anything over the past month, it's that God's plans are *always* bigger, better and out of nowhere! :D I'd never seen your blog, but I love it! (Oh, and I'll be praying for you with that whole nursing and teething thing... it sounds sweet but painful) lol

  2. Thanks, HB! I love all your creations on your blog! The nursing is sweet and the teeth are sweet, but not together! lol

  3. I feel the same way about the friends part but I would not trade this experience for the world.

  4. Loved reading your story! I never thought I would have kids either! I didn't like them.. now I have 2!! And believe my calling from God is to take care of kids...any and all kids...to love them..the way he loves me!!! So funny how God has his plans for our life..and they are so much better than our own! And the friend thing..I know exactly what you mean..it's hard..but God is there to listen and he will put people in your life that you need!

    Blessings to you and your family,

  5. God's timing is perfect. Isn't it funny how we think we've got everything figured out, then God shows us HIS plan? lol

    You are a wonderful mommy. Perhaps God is preparing you to witness to other young mommies who are NOT part of our church, but need a church family. We certainly have a lot in our community!

    Trust Him...he will guide and provide.

    Love you!